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God, If This is All
I no longer believe in God. Growing up religious, I viewed non-believers with pity. Their lives certainly lacked meaning and truth....
Jun 18, 20244 min read


Closer to Fine
Last spring, I dropped out of graduate school, a decision of vast pride. Usually dropping out and pride live in different sentences, so...
Apr 30, 20244 min read


Surrender
I’ve been interrogating 3 am. Asking the night who I am? And what I ought to do? And why, well why any of it? Why life? And why...
Apr 22, 20241 min read


Becoming Real
The thought of freedom continually rings in my mind. Not an eagle-chirping, American-flag-waving “freedom”, but psychological freedom....
Jan 19, 20245 min read


New Year's Day
I spent much of 2023 in a prolonged mental health crisis. Mental health is exasperating. I recognize the immense beauty, privilege, and...
Jan 1, 20244 min read


Panic.
This week I started experiencing panic attacks. Anxiety and I are old acquaintances. We understand each other now. I know anxiety’s...
Nov 6, 20222 min read


I Found My Path to God by Leaving Religion
I believe in God. I know how polarizing this statement is. For years, I repressed, ignored, or avoided this truth in my life. I feared...
Jul 28, 20224 min read


I Am Healing by Accepting I Will Never Be "Cured"
I have depressive and anxious thoughts, I always will, and that is okay. I spent four years in therapy trying desperately to cure myself....
Jul 25, 20226 min read


A Smaller World
How can we be happy in a world flooded with devastation? This question has pressed on my mind for the last three years as we lived...
Feb 25, 20222 min read
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